Me Before You By- Jojo Moyes

25# Book Review– ★★★★☆

Me Before You

By-

Jojo Moyes

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*Slowly wipes tears from my eyes. Proceeds to write the book review*

So y’all probably know about the basic plot of the book, since the movie is coming out in a couple of days. But for those of you who live under a rock, here’s the basic story-line:

“I told him a story of two people. Two people who shouldn’t have met, and who didn’t like each other much when they did, but who found they were the only two people in the world who could possibly have understood each other.”

Twenty six year old Louisa Clark has lead a simple, stable life. She has a job at the local café, a gorgeous boyfriend who she has been with for seven years, and a messy hyperactive family who love her to bits. She lives in a small, basic town wherein nothing ever happens. She can’t see beyond this little bubble she has built around herself, can’t see past the horizon And she doesn’t care, she loves it.

“You know, you can only actually help someone who wants to be helped.” 

Thirty Five year old Will Traynor lost everything the day he had that accident with the motorcycle, damaging his spine and leaving him paralyzed from the chest below, with only little sensation in his hands.  He hates the life he lives now. In fact, he barely lives. A man who used to love everything that involved the usage of his limbs, can’t use them anymore. He hates being trapped in a wheel chair. He’s lost the desire to live.

Then Lou aka Louisa loses her job, that too in the middle of recession, and the stable life she’d been wrapped up in, shatters in front of her eyes. Suddenly the future she’d been so easily predicting, vanishes before her eyes and she doesn’t know what to do anymore.

So she takes up a job—an unusual one. She has to be Will’s care taker. The pay is great, and the hours are decent, even though Will is a pain in the arse, and definitely not the most pleasant person to be around. He thinks she is dumb, and an unwanted intruder. He just wants to be left alone.

“I needed to tell him, silently, that things might change, grow, or fail, but that life did go on. That we were all part of some great cycle, some pattern that it was only God’s purpose to understand.” 

“You only get one life. It’s actually your duty to live it as fully as possible.” 

But when they give each other a chance, everything changes.

“I know this isn’t a conventional love story. I know there are all sorts of reasons I shouldn’t even be saying what I am. But I love you. I do.

If only their time together didn’t have an expiration date…

“I had a hundred and seventeen days in which to convince Will Traynor that he had a reason to live.” 

*sigh* another novel that reminded me of ‘The Fault in Our Stars’. I enjoyed the characters. Despite being a sad romance novel that’s supposed to make you cry, the characters were quite likeable. They weren’t depressed and grouchy all the time, so that was great. The story was mildly amusing, and the characters weren’t two dimensional. I could relate to Louisa Clark every now and then. It was of course, hard to relate to Will, if you’re not going through something as extreme as him. But that doesn’t mean it was difficult to understand his feelings, his motives and actions and his situation. That’s one of the remarkable things about this novel. I don’t want to give a spoiler or anything, but the way the author wrote this book…she made it easier for us as readers to accept and understand Will’s choices. Which is a big feat in itself.

The supporting characters were realistic and weren’t just there for the sake of being there. They all had some role to play.

Despite being a romance, I found the book to be slightly plot centric, and not as emotion-centric, for some reasons. I believe the romance could have been enhanced in some parts, but it wasn’t. Emotions were expressed more through actions, instead of dialogues and feelings. And the story didn’t focus as much on the development of the relationship between two people, as it did on the other major events. The character-relation dynamics were quite stagnant in some parts which makes me feel that way.

As for the writing style, it wasn’t anything exceptional. It was simple enough, and likeable, slightly entertaining, and overall fine.

If anyone of y’all is emotional af (because god knows I’m not) and wants to get a decent cry, you should go read this book. It’s sweet and sad, and it plays in your head like a movie. (Tip: watch the trailer before you read the book, it helps) All you fans of John Green and Nicholas Sparks will enjoy this book.

Happy Reading! x

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Eleanor & Park By–Rainbow Rowell

24# Book Review–★★★☆☆ 

Eleanor & Park

By-

Rainbow Rowell

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“If you can’t save your own life, is it even worth saving?” 

Wild, curly, unkempt red hair, a body that feels too big, a life that is falling apart bit by bit, just like her clothes—we have Eleanor.

“There’s only one of him.” 

Feeling of not belonging, an abundance of love for comic books and mix tapes, struggling with his racial and gender identity, and coerced by the narrow social system of high school—we have Park.

These two misfits meet in the most ordinary of ways (in the school bus) and end up experiencing an extra ordinary love.

“What are the chances you’d ever meet someone like that, he wondered. Someone you could love forever, someone who would forever love you back?”

 When they both are perfect for each other—but the timing isn’t.

“I don’t like you, Park. Sometimes I think I live for you”

When they both are falling together, but life is falling apart.

“Nothing before you counts,” he said. “And I can’t even imagine an after.” 

Eleanor & Park are the next door star crossed lovers who’re experiencing something too good to be true; something too good to last.

“I just can’t believe that life would give us to each other,’ he said, ‘and then take it back.’

‘I can,’ she said. ‘Life’s a bastard.” 

This book reminded me, on more than one occasions, of ‘The Fault in Our Stars’ by John Green. And if you know me, you know that I didn’t particularly like that book. So yeah, even with ‘Eleanor & Park’ my ratings are average.

Some of the parts were really likeable, full of quotes and feels-inducing, written effortlessly and beautifully. Like, I can really swoon over the quote-like dialogues, you know? But there were other parts, these really dull and plain parts that didn’t feel me anything, that made me want to skim over.

I’ll be honest, the story was realistic and believable and cute. But, I think it lacked intensity. Yes, there were a few parts, but I think even those could have been intense. As a teenager, I know how intense and high you feel when you have feelings for someone. This book was raw in terms of character and plot, and I liked that. I wish it had been a little more raw with feelings too. Saying ‘I love you’ a dozen times I great, but I wish there were scenes and actions that showed it more.

So I suppose that’s why it reminded me of The Fault in our Stars. Both of them are dotted with quotes, with realistic teen characters who are kinda bleak and see life for what it is. Both involve items/hobbies the couple bond over (books, and comics and music in the latter) I just didn’t feel it that intensely though. I craved a bit of…more. More angst, more pain, more intensity, more feelings.

The characters were nice enough. I liked the fact that Rainbow Rowell created a female protagonist who wasn’t perfect. Like we all read about the plain female protagonists who nobody notices but they in actuality are quite pretty and amazing. This though, this was the real thing. Eleanor was real. She didn’t have the body of a goddess hidden beneath layers of clothes, she didn’t look like an actress when you gave her a makeover and tamed her wild red hair. She just looked like a less messy version of herself, and that was really appreciable. Because hey, we all can’t be pretty and look like we’ve walked straight out of a movie scene. I liked that she wasn’t likeable. Heck, even I didn’t like her through most of the novel and couldn’t appreciate her personality, until later when I gained better isnight into her situation. So basically, it’s like judging a real person—you don’t like them until you realize they have their reasons.

Well we can sum her up through Park’s words basically,

“Eleanor was right. She never looked nice. She looked like art, and art wasn’t supposed to look nice; it was supposed to make you feel something.” 

Park was cute, I didn’t understand why he was so awkward and like why were they both just so hesitant to touch each other all the time, even after they got together, but it was cute.

The plot was kinda slow but it didn’t seem as if it lacked structure. I didn’t see major character development though. But by realistic standards, it makes sense.

I liked the racial diversity in the plot. Race was discussed lightly without tackling all the hard-core problems, to make the novel a light read.

All in all it was a decent one time read. I wasn’t completely blown away by it or anything and it did get kinda boring at times, but the writing is beautiful. Read it for the quotes haha

But I Love Him By- Amanda Grace

22# Book Review– ★★☆☆☆ (1.5 Stars)

But I Love Him

By-

Amanda Grace

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This book is seriously not meant for entertainment purposes. It’s more of an informative, insightful read that was…boring. So boring I kept checking how many pages were left. It was awful to get through. I contemplated giving up on several occasions, but completed it anyway. I kept waiting for the book to redeem itself but it never did. Even 1.5 stars is pushing it.

 “I wanted to be his life preserver, the thing that would keep him afloat. Instead, he became my anchor. And I’m tired of drowning.”

Eighteen year old Ann is in love with Connor. She gave up everything—her ambitions, her family, her friends, her hobby—just to be with him. And Connor is in love with her. But sometimes his rage overpowers that. And then he hurts her.

“I should have known when he said ‘You’re so lucky I don’t hit girls,’ that one day he would.”

Mentally.

Psychologically.

Physically.

Emotionally.

“Where’ve you been all my life”

“Waiting for you.”

It’s the kind of love that’s difficult to walk away from. It swallows you whole, spouting out some other version of you, someone you can’t recognize.

“People don’t understand us. They don’t understand me. They think it’s so black and white, that he makes me miserable and that I should be with someone else and that I deserve something else.

But it’s not black and white at all. It’s gray. It’s a never-ending world of gray.

They don’t understand that there is so much to him that they’ll never see. That he only shows to me. They don’t understand that late at night, he tells me how beautiful I am. He tells me all the things he will give me one day, when our problems are over. They don’t understand he would die for me.”

‘But I Love Him’ is a collection of memories that show how Ann encountered the most beautiful feeling in the world, and then simultaneously lost everything that she held dear. Including herself.

“This isn’t love. It’s something broken and ugly. I wanted it so badly I didn’t care what it looked like.”

This book had the potential to be a really emotional read and like, it could really work, you know? But it didn’t.

A distinguishing characteristic about this book is that it’s written in a reverse-chronological order, so like it ends with when Ann meets Conner for the first time. Now, the author clarifies that she did it so that the readers don’t judge her character. She says that there’s usually a distinguishing point in abusive relationships, like when the person is abused for the first time, and if she’d written it in chronological order, the readers would probably be like ‘I would have walked away now’ (and she’s kind of right, you know) so she didn’t want that to happen.

However the reverse chronological order, plus the lack of dialogues and descriptions made it impossible for me as a reader to connect with the characters. And for such emotion-based stories, it’s really important to do just that. So as a result, it ended up being a really boring read. Also, I still judged the character, despite the reverse chronological order. Imagine a book, now remember all the good parts and leave it with filler chapters. That’s how reading this book felt like—like I was reading a bunch of filler chapters.

The writing style was good. This book would be a decent read for someone who wants to know what being in an abusive relationship feels like. I’d give it a 3.5 stars if that’s all I’d wanted. But I’d wanted chills, and tears, and entertainment which I didn’t get. So, sadly it’s a 1.5. I did kinda get teary eyes towards the end when she (oops can’t reveal it that’ll be a spoiler) So, that’s a 1.5 for you!

Read it if you wanna know how it feels to be in an abusive relationship. Otherwise please avoid it, you’ll be disappointed.

November 9 By- Colleen Hoover

21# Book Review– ★★★★☆ (4.5 Stars)

November 9

By-

Colleen Hoover

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So my best friend suggested me to read this book, and honestly, I had been a little sceptical. You can’t be too wary of all those NA Romance Novels out there that spout out the same crap book after book. So yes, I’d been a little hesitant. But thankfully, this book didn’t turn out to be a waste of time. Quite the opposite actually, it was a really entertaining read. It reminded me why writers are such dangerous species and how they can stomp on your heart and play with your feelings using just a bunch of words. What even…

I’d shed a couple of tears by the time I finished reading this book. Surprisingly, the tears were tears of happiness. So surprising, right? Like I’m sure we’ve all come across books that make us bawl our eyes out and clog our noses and just make us realize how sad life can really be. But this, oh this was entirely different. This made me laugh out loud, and wipe my tears as I tried to regain the control of my emotions. If you want to feel content and happy and realize how beautiful love can really be, you definitely need to read this book. It reminds you that sometimes very ordinary people can experience extra-ordinary love. It made me want to fall in love with someone right now and experience all those intense beautiful things. But it also inspired me enough to wait for that kind of love to come along, to settle for nothing less than extra-ordinary.

“I’ve never loved someone I hate so much, and I’ve never hated someone I love so much.”

Ever since the terrible fire that burnt away 30% of her body when she was sixteen, and on her way to becoming a successful actress, Fallon has been insecure. A girl who once loved her appearance and was confident, now hides behind her curtain of hair and clothes that hide her scars. Then on the fateful day of November 9th, she stumbles across Benton Kessler.

“She’s not the kind of girl you choose your battles for. She’s the kind of girl you fight to the death for.”

When Benton Kessler, the so-called writer in the making,  hears Fallon’s asshole-ish father making his insecure daughter feel even more insecure and unworthy, he can’t control himself. So before he can stop himself, he barges in on their conversation, pretending to be Fallon’s “boyfriend”.

“If she’s not careful, I might just fall in love with her. Tonight.”

What starts as a thirty minute fake relationship, extends throughout the day with both of them spending the whole of November 9 together. There’s this undeniable instant connection that is impossible to ignore, and before the day has ended Ben gets to observe the deeply destroyed parts of her soul, her low self esteem and all the insecurities attached with it. But he’s different. Fallon has never come across a guy like him before. Instead of flinching at the sight of her scars and shying away from them, he embraces her for who she is. For the first time in two years she feels beautiful, and wanted.

“He presses his mouth to mine and kisses me with so much emotion, I forget all the things. Everything. I forget where I am. Who I am.”

Before long the day ends, and they have to accept the fact that as much fun it had been, Fallon is moving away to New York. But this connection they had…it’s too good to be true. Too precious to let go of so easily. So they make a pact. That they’ll meet each other every year for the next five years on the same day—November 9, at the same place. Fallon also suggests him to write a book about it—to write a book about those five coming years in which they’ll meet once a year. Between that annual meeting, they’ll have no connection what-so-ever. So they block each other on every social media, and don’t exchange phone numbers. And then they wait, for a whole year.

“But the only thing that makes me sad—the biggest thing—is that I think about you every second of every day and I don’t know how to get over you.”

“Don’t,” I beg her. “Please don’t get over me.”

The idea seems harmless. What’s the worst that could happen?

“Because it’s easy to fall in love, Ben. The hard part comes when you want out.”

Actually, everything.

Okay, first thing, do you have any idea how many beautiful, heart-touching quotes this book has? A lot. Like a lot lot. (You can read them in the Quotes Section of my blog) The book has been written so beautifully. The dialogue work is splendid. It’s absolutely magical. So yes, the writing style is good, like romance novel-worthy good.

Now, about the characters. The female protagonist, Fallon; she just has this…thing about her, you know? That makes it so easy for you to step into her shoes. I don’t know about you, but as a girl, I’ve been insecure about my appearance and my body quite a lot. So, her insecurity and vulnerability is very…believable. You see a part of yourself in her. You can step into her shoes. Despite that, she’s not a cry baby or anything. She’s actually quite spunky and funny and like a really good person. So you don’t get sick of her.

Ah, and what do I say about Benton James Kessler? Reading about Ben was like inhaling a fresh breath of air and I feel so…clean, I don’t even have words to express myself. He was just so refreshing. He was not like those typical book worthy male protagonists that make you swoon but he still was book-worthy. I think that’s because he was…perfect, but in a real, more believable way. Like give me gorgeous billionaires with emotional conflicts and mad bedroom skills any day, but there’s something so…amazing about a normal guy who’s dorky but has this amazing sense of humor and this inner passion, and this humongous capacity to love someone and just be there for them. Someone who is so fucking motivational and says just the right things at the right time. But like he also has his scars and his flaws and his insecurities. And you know, someone who thinks it’s a privilege to be able to love you. You will come to love his character, I promise you.

About the plot: It might seem a little…ordinary and normal during the first eighty page sor so. You know, it might seem kinda predictable and you’ll be like ‘I don’t see anythign special about this novel. It’s…good, but not amazing.’ Give it another couple of pages and you’ll not be able to put this book down. Trust me. It had a lot of romance at the start with hints of humor. But we eventually get the drama we crave oh-so-much! This would be a perfect plot for a RomCom, you know? This really needs to be made into a movie.

Please read this book if you want to get chest pains and feel that your feelings have been manipulated by the author. But most of all, read it to make yourself feel alive and happy (and like a gooey puddle of happiness and tears)

She “loved me” in quotations

She kissed me in bold

I TRIED TO KEEP HER in all caps

She left with an ellipsis . . .

—BENTON JAMES KESSLER

Every Last Word By- Tamara Ireland Stone

20# Book Review– ★★★★☆ (4.5 Stars)

Every Last Word

By-

Tamara Ireland Stone

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Sam is popular, beautiful and part of the ‘Crazy Eights’, the school’s most popular girl gang. But being popular is not all that it’s cut out to be. For example, it’s hard to keep secrets. Sam rages a daily battle with Purely-Obsessional OCD. Her thoughts tend to spiral out of control. She can’t stop thinking, her mind never shuts up. So much so, that she needs sleep medications and antianxiety medications to function properly. She meets up with her psychiatrist Sue every week for therapy.

All Sam really craves is to be normal. She wishes she could speak her mind and be the person she really is. But who is she? She doesn’t know.

Until she stumbles upon ‘The Poet’s Corner’, a hidden room underneath the theatre of the school where a group of people meet twice a week to share their poetries, and consequently, an intimate part of their soul.

Initially reluctant to make her a part of their group, she eventually succeeds in becoming a member of this secret poetry club consisting of kids much like her; kids who are battling with personal and external issues, who just really need an outlet.

And then, her life’s never the same.

“If you could read my mind, you wouldn’t be smiling.” 

“Everyone’s got something. Some people are just better actors than others.”

‘The poems here are silly, heartbreaking, hilarious, sad, and many are absolutely incredible. They are about people who don’t care enough and people who care too much, people you trust and people who turn on you, hating school, loving your friends, seeing the beauty in the world. Sprinkled among them are heavier ones about depression and addiction, self mutilation and various forms of self medication. But most of them are about love. Wanting it. Missing it. Actually being in it.’

‘This is a mistake. He doesn’t like me; he likes the person Caroline turned me into. He thinks I’m a normal girl who swims and writes poetry, but I’m not. I’m obsessed with my thoughts and I can’t sleep and I count in threes. He writes music and wears his heart on his sleeve, and I don’t deserve him.”

‘I like him. I like everything about him. The way he plays. The songs he writes. The things he says. The way he makes me want to speak out, not hold my words inside. That dimple. Those lips. I have to know what they feel like.’

“I didn’t go there looking for you. I went looking for me.” My voice is soft, low, and shaky. “But now, here you are, and somehow, in finding you, I think I’ve found myself.” 

I really liked this book because it was just…beautiful. That’s the only word good enough to describe it. It was really intense, and the characters were very human. It was a beautiful story about self actualization and discovering yourself, with a romantic subplot. It makes you realize that every person has a story. It was really sweet, kinda sad, and hundred percent real. You should definitely give it a read!

Paper Towns By- John Green

16# Book Review– ★★★☆☆ (3.5 Stars)

Paper Towns

By-

John Green

“YOU WILL GO TO THE PAPER TOWNS
AND YOU WILL NEVER COME BACK”

“The way I figure it, everyone gets a miracle. Like, I will probably never be struck by lightening, or win a Nobel Prize, or become the dictator of a small nation in the Pacific Islands, or contract terminal ear cancer, or spontaneously combust. But if you consider all the unlikely things together, at least one of them will probably happen to each of us. I could have seen it rain frogs. I could have stepped foot on Mars. I could have been eaten by a whale. I could have married the Queen of England or survived months at sea. But my miracle was different. My miracle was this: out of all the houses in all the subdivisions in all of Florida, I ended up living next door to Margo Roth Spiegelman.”

“Maybe she loved mysteries so much that she became one.”

“It is so hard to leave—until you leave. And then it is the easiest goddamned thing in the world.”

“It was nice – in the dark and the quiet… and her eyes looking back, like there was something in me worth seeing.”

A John Green novel, I’ve come to realize, is like a long, long journey. The journey has its up and downs, but there are a lot of scenic places to keep you occupied. The journey is the kind that stays with you, because it makes you feel something.  But as interesting as the journey is, your anticipation to reach your destination keeps increasing. But when you finally, finally reach the destination, it turns out to be this shitty mud house. And you realize the journey was so much better. The destination? The destination is crap.

How’s that for metaphors, you metaphor-obsessed nerd?! (refers to John Green)

So basically, that’s a John Green novel for you. I’ve read three of them (The Fault in our Stars, Looking for Alaska and now, Paper Towns) and I totally enjoyed most of the novel. The start was slow but not this-is-so-terrible-let-me-dump-this-book kind. Then around the middle I’m like ‘Hey, I’ enjoying this!’Then you keep on reading, and reading, forgetting time and space (but not food, you cannot forget food) and then just before the climax you’re like “Oh my god, this is so good. I can’t wait for the end!” (Unless of course he kills one of the characters, but even then) Then finally, finally you reach the end. You don’t stop. You read right through it. Then you shut the book and you’re like “the fuck did I just read?! I can’t believe that was the end.” And I don’t mean that in a good way. I mean that in a ‘the-destination-is-a-crappy-mud-house-way’, you feel me?

Why is the end so disappointing? Why is the end so bitterly realistic and raw, and not exactly painful, but…unsatisfying?

‘Paper Towns’ could be a ‘Looking for Alaska’ side book or something. Both the books feature virginal teenage boys who are basically at the end of the social ladders, harboring a massive, hopeless crush on the Queen Bee (who is absolutely unattainable) who they’ve set on a pedestal. She’s weird, and different, mysterious and unpredictable, and there’s something about her that makes you want to be a part of her world, to know her thoughts, to love her.

Then she goes ahead and does something unpredictable and vanishes off the face of the Earth, and the guy decides that it is up to him to find her, and unravel the mystery because his life basically revolves around her (or so it seems) And he spends a considerable amount of time to unravel the mystery, simultaneously discovering loads of life-related philosophies, and babbles/thinks sentences that soon become John Green’s famous quotes.

What I’m trying to say here is, don’t read ‘Paper Towns.’ Go read ‘Looking for Alaska,’ at least the ending makes sense; at least the ending is acceptable. At least you can forgive the Queen Bee for being so unpredictable.  ‘Paper Towns’ is just a beautiful journey that will fill your heart with hope, but you won’t get the extravagant ending you so desperately craved. You’ll feel incomplete, and unsettled. Don’t read this.

So I’m telling you to not read this, but I’ve still given it three stars. Why? Simply because one-star rated books are crap, and you don’t really care what happens to the characters, or the story. But this story is far from that. You end up caring for the characters, and then they disappoint you. You don’t deserve disappointment. You deserve happiness, and satisfaction.

In short, GO READ ‘LOOKING FOR ALASKA.’

(You can find its book review on my blog for further reading)

My Heart & Other Blackholes by Jasmine Warga

12# Book Review- ★★★★☆ (3.5 Stars)

My Heart & Other Black Holes

By-

Jasmine Warga

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‘Depression is like a heaviness that you can’t ever escape. It crushes down on you, making even the smallest things like tying your shoes or chewing on toast seem like a twenty-mile hike uphill. Depression is a part of you; it’s in your bones and your blood. If I know anything about it, this is what I know: It’s impossible to escape.’

Ayzell (uh-zell like gazelle) is depressed. “The black slug” in the pit of her stomach sucks all her emotions. She has a black hole in her chest cavity. She is ready to die.

‘As I hum Mozart’s requiem, I wonder what it will feel like when all the lights go off and everything is quiet forever. I don’t know if it will be painful, if in those last moments I’ll be scared, but all I can hope is that it will be over fast. That it will be peaceful. That it will be permanent.’

But maybe she’s not. Like what if there’s something much worse in store? Everybody has a potential energy, and sometimes Ayzell wonders what will happen to hers once she leaves this world.

To put it simply, she’s not sure if she has it in her to do this selfish deed on her own. So she finds herself a suicide partner on this website called ‘Smooth Passage’—FrozenRobot aka Roman.

At first, she couldn’t believe someone like him would want to die. He’s got it all—the looks, the popularity, friends, a loving family—everything Ayzell could only dream of. While he’s the basketball star of his town, she’s just the girl people talk about in hushed whisper, the daughter of a murderer.

‘FrozenRobot does have a frozen quality. All of his movements and facial expressions have a tension to them, like he was carved out of stone and locked in a chamber of ice and recently brought back to life. (…)Yes, he looks like someone who was designed to be popular and successful, but he also looks like someone who was made to wear grief.

He wears it well.’

They decide to do the deed on April 7th, about a month from the date they find each other, by jumping off the cliff into the Ohio river.

It should be simple, right? Ending their life? After all, that’s what they want.

Except things get…complicated.

‘”I know this is confusing. We’re in a strange and fucked-up position and we can’t let ourselves get fooled by the situation.”

I try to jerk my hands away from his, be he doesn’t let go of them. His fingers dig into my knuckles. “The situation?”

“The fact that we’re Suicide Partners. We have this intimacy and, yeah, sure, we have chemistry.”

“Chemistry?” I can’t help but laugh.’

 

‘He’s no longer FrozenRobot, my Suicide Partner from the internet. He’s Roman, the boy who kissed me by the river and held me all night. To me, there’s a difference. A big difference.

He’s no longer the person I want to die with; he’s the person I want to be alive with.’

 

Ayzell realizes she has hope; that she wants to convert her potential energy into a kinetic energy; that she wants to live. But she must convince Roman too. Well, the only problem is, Roman doesn’t want to be convinced.

‘My heart stalls. I want to ask him how he can say things like that—seven days before we’re supposed to die. It’s not fair. He can’t make me love him when he’s going to leave me. When he wants to leave me. When he knows this is the end.’

This book started out slow. I’m not going to lie, I even skimmed through a couple of paragraphs because I was getting bored. I don’t know why I liked the book. I really don’t. I couldn’t forge a deep bond with the characters. The story was…plain (until the last couple of chapters) the romance was simple and not very obvious. But there was…something. I just think the author did a brilliant job with the theme—depression and suicide. Like I’ve read a bunch of books by authors that totally ruin a wonderful theme. This is not one of those books. I loved the message and the hope. I loved the sincerity of the characters and the…realness of it. It was written nicely, it was very realistic. And most of all, it did the theme justice. And it’s not easy to do justice to a theme like this.

I just recommend all of you to read it. This book gives you hope.

Here are two more quotes before I sign off. (Yup, so many quotes in this book, I fell in love)

‘I can feel everything. And I want to keep feeling everything. Even the painful, awful, terrible things. Because feeling things is what lets us know that we’re alive.’

 

‘I once read in my physics book that the universe begs to be observed, that energy travels and transfers when people pay attention. Maybe that’s what love really boils down to—having someone who cares enough to pay attention so that you’re encouraged to travel and transfer, to make your potential energy spark into kinetic energy. Maybe all anyone ever needs is for someone to notice them, to observe them’

 

xo